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How To Be Authentic In A Superficial World

How To Be Authentic In A Superficial World

I was initially enthusiastic about being my authentic self, I was excited about finding my authentic voice and my authentic self. Like a small child with a shiny new toy, I just had to test drive it. 

As I flowed rapidly onto my highest self, it was a phase I moved through smoothly, like a river that met the ocean, I didn't think much about.

Flow is beautiful being, flow is me.

We all know being our authentic selves daily is hard enough, not to talk about being our highest selves. So then why do some people think it's so easy? Are they accurate? 

These are some insights I have 

1. Authenticity isn't at the expense of privacy 

2. Stigma of authenticity

3. An unexamined life isn't worth living - Socrates 

4. An inner critic is an inner voice in distress

5. Authenticity is our integrated whole selves 

 

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How To Minimise Distress Around A Narcissist

How To Minimise Distress Around A Narcissist

This is for people are still dealing with narcissists for one reason or the other. You might be planning to leave a narcissist or have left and is in recovery. No contact is the best way to recover, sometimes it's impossible to go no contact because you're co-parenting, the narcissist is a parent and your're dependent on him/her, you might not be financially independent or the narcissist is a boss and you cannot leave until you find a new job. 

There are some common scenarios, there are other scenarios as well. 

It's a chicken and egg thing, if your mental health and other needs like finances, etc. aren't met, you find difficulty leaving immediately. You might be in a worse off state than before leaving, having a well-planned exit is the best option for you and will go much towards your recovered future. 

1. Completely accepted they don't give a toss about you.

2. Grey rock is a technique that allows one to take a step back and simply observe instead of fending off or goading into the unwanted attention.

3. Stay neutral where there's enough room for them to feel comfortable, you're not affirming anything, you're also not rejecting it outright. 

4. Do not let flying monkeys (enablers) guilt trip you.  

5.  Be the genuine you, the calm centred authentic you. 

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I'm Angry With The Patriarchy & I'm Happy About It!

I'm Angry With The Patriarchy & I'm Happy About It!

I had a rough two weeks, feeling this uncensured rage is no joke. I was downing cooling water like a crazy person, up my meditation and yoga practice to manage. It was controlled rage that was simmering under the surface, there were times I thought the world finally broke me, I imagined cartoonish fizzling wires out the top of my head. I laughed manically at how I finally found myself, how I suspected the world broke me after. The biggest irony of my life played out in the stage of my mind, laughter was the only way to handle a madness I can't make sense of. A madness that wasn't even my own, a madness of the world that always made me feel otherworldly. 

I was a pillar of fire that flooded out in lonely hot tears, sleepless nights gagging on my throat chakra, I was choking on my rage and it was burning me up. Nightmares started when I managed to finally fall asleep, I can run but I can't seem to hide. I woke up tired, I went to sleep just as tired. As Hannah Gadsby says, I identify as tired. 

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The I'm-Not-Being-A-Dick Surprising Benefits Of PTSD

The I'm-Not-Being-A-Dick Surprising Benefits Of PTSD

Day 278 of 365 Days of Being

What the what? Benefits of PTSD? OK, at a glance this can sound like the invalidating bullshit people throw at people with mental illness or people with PTSD. 

I think everything has its pro and cons, even the most debilitating events in our lives can turn into the most enlightening illuminating ones. It is in the darkest that we see where the light comes in. I wouldn't have been able to see this side, if not for me completing my awakening, with the help of my spirit. I had a lot working against me. 

Trauma bonds 

Familiarity to pain 

Depression and anxiety

Co-dependeny 

People pleasing 

Misdiagnosis of bipolar for 9 pre 2016 years. The depression and anxiety was me working so darn hard and not finding solutions. It wasn't until after I had an awakening, leaned on my spirit and found out it was PTSD. 

Several suicide attempts 

I loved myself out of my PTSD, then loved myself into living whole. I believe we can love ourselves out of anything and love ourselves into anything. Even the darkest trials of our lives offer us beneficial lessons if we're willing to humbly learn from them. I got sick and tired of having PTSD, hitting rock bottom and out of desperation, I asked myself a question I never did ask before, what are the pros? I had a long list of cons, it didn't help me, it's so frustrating to do all I can to move out of it, ending up feeling like a failure, beating myself up repeatedly. So I decided to flip the script! 

Below is my discovery about PTSD and how I got out of it. 

PTSD means I was in constant fight or flight mode, hyper vigilance was the warrior in my subconscious mind which meant I was always looking for a safe place or safe people all my life. Being in fight or flight meant that my intuition was being trained to spot signs of danger, whether overtly as in violence or verbal abuse, also non-verbal cues like micro expressions, body language and energy fluctuations. My high intuition and speedy spiritual progress came from this pain, I was trained by trauma to avoid trauma. This is also why many Empaths, INFJs, Psychics and highly intuitive people have suffered abuse of one kind or another, eventually becoming expert lie detectors. Also the best healers when we learn how to balance our empathy with empowerment, heal any wounds we need to. 

PTSD helped me grow empathy, how we're all silently dealing with our pain, that it's possible that even those closest to us have no clue or feel helpless about it. Knowing how selfish the world can be, I started appreciating how my big-heartedness made me a gem of a child, partner, friend and much more. 

Recovery is an uphill battle, having a conducive environment of accepting loving people is vital, since I didn't have that, I decided to be all that to myself. It also helped me appreciate the full value of empathy, the importance of daily kindness because we don't know what someone is going through. It expanded my understanding of humanity, inculcate my passion to be a healer. 

 

It humbled me, helped me see that being stuck in victimhood can really destroy my life. People busy rescuing themselves 24/7 can already struggle, I was struggling and rescuing people as well, it was way too much to handle. While being victimised wasn't my choice, I did have a choice to change my story of sorrow into one of resilience and hope. Like a boss, I didn't write my beginning, I am in charge of my ending. Wallowing in self-pity, playing the fear tape, did nothing for me. 

I have done it long enough, I have put others before me long enough, now was time to do me, put me first and give it a whirl. 

I also realised I was egoistic to think I can carry the pain of everyone else when I was in so much pain myself, my intentions were in the right place, I was also unknowing avoiding my wounds. By directing all the love I desperately craved towards others, distracted me from my wounds because I didn't feel worthy of my own love or my own empathy or compassion. Boundaries are a must and a first for recovery, I was too punishing, taking on too much at one go. 

I was so busy trying to prove myself to everyone else that I severely neglected myself, all things come from self, my want to help others need not be at the expense of my own wellbeing. I need not throw myself under the bus for someone else, especially those people who don't give a toss about me. Those who love me want me to share my overflow, want to see me healthy and doing well. Self-love is no.1, when I started loving myself the way I loved others, all doors opened up for me. I experience profound peace and lasting joy now. 

Having PTSD didn't mean my talents aren't there, they were still there, hidden under a cloud of wounds, I was amazing even if I didn't believe it then, I do now! I can showcase them in a way I can, when I can, when I want to. I have the choice to moderate my pace, all in my own good time. 

Learning how to be positive includes knowing what negativity is. I was familiarising myself with that side of the story so I knew what I didn't want as well as how to conquer it. There's no such thing as failure because I was learning all the time. 

If you're stuck with PTSD, make a list of the benefits and start loving those things instead. When you start loving those things, you will find yourself moving out of it. What we direct our energetic focus to, expands those things that make us beautiful. When people see how we're trying our best to cope, they start appreciating us, we start feeling better. Remember not to compare your progress with anyone, we all have our own unique situation with unique talents. Focus on progress not perfection, one self-honouring step at a time. 

Believe that recovery is possible, you need not live a diminished life for wounds not of your own doing. 

Love, light and peace. 

Min

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Why Making It About Serena Williams & Naomi Osaka Is Misogyny

Why Making It About Serena Williams & Naomi Osaka Is Misogyny

My point is that it isn't about Naomi versus Serena, it's overall about sexism, racism in Tennis. It's about Serena and Carlos Ramos, did he make a bad call or was it justified? Making it about Naomi versus Serena is missing the point, making it about the "friction" between them is already underestimating these two amazing powerful women, so much misogyny is showing. It's disturbing and disillusioning, this idea that Serena, the GOAT - Greatest Of All Time is still so undermined and undervalued. While some still don't think misogyny exist. 

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The Vagina Envy Of Misogyny In Drag

The Vagina Envy Of Misogyny In Drag

I just quit an online group after being attacked and called transphobic. I shared a friend's Facebook post, an article by Skylar Baker-Jordan about homophobic, anti-woman trans activism on a supposedly inclusive online safe place. When I shared that, I made it clear that I have indeed encountered trans women bullying, holding onto male privilege, expecting me to be less than while wanting acceptance at the same time. Anyone who disrespects me doesn't deserve respect from me as well. 

So in comes a few people including one trans woman. I know this because I commented on her posts previously and supported her. They made it all about their gender identities, telling me how this article is offensive and my comment is offensive, I asked which parts exactly? Can you quote and explain why? None were forthcoming. One person who was especially offended is that trans woman, on and on about how offensive it was, without explaining why. 

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Is Intention Enough In Doing Good?

Is Intention Enough In Doing Good?

Compared to the multiple times I received lousy support, I had to heal from newly inflicted pain on top of my existing pain. As a former people pleaser with low self-esteem, I was unaware of this happening, I felt their intentions are well-meaning and thanked them instead. I also never got my needs met as well, constantly punishing myself when it's not that I never got good support.
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Me Too, The Rejection Of The Angry Woman

Me Too, The Rejection Of The Angry Woman

The angry woman label has been used to demonise women for having a natural reaction to boundaries crossed, sexual assault, harassment, abuse and rape. Along with it is the "hysterical woman", "bitch", "pushy broad", "manly woman". In the spiritual and religious community,  there's the "unkind woman", "immoral woman", "unholy woman", "unspiritual woman".
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Day 26 of 365 Days of Being - Abundance Mindset Wealth Prophecy

Day 26 of 365 Days of Being - Abundance Mindset Wealth Prophecy

If you’re drawn to spirituality, it feels natural to scorn “materialism.” I have also proudly proclaimed throughout my life that I'm not into money, shunning all I deem superficial. When I started thinking about this, it sure seems like a contradiction that became larger than ever post awakening. Then I realised it isn't a contradiction at all.
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The Truth Behind Mental Health Advocacy & Feminism

The Truth Behind Mental Health Advocacy & Feminism

I started mental health advocacy work in 2012, it has been 5 years since. While different advocacy efforts have its own unique challenges, there are some similarities. 

Here are some lessons I learned from mental health advocacy that I have encountered with women's rights. 

The same people you use your voice for are the first to object

Learned helplessness

Hidden agenda

Mistake your kindness for weakness

Underestimate the challenges of recovery, invalidating the hard work

Being a voice for others, it's also about your personal evolvement 

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