If you're a dieter, chances are you're sick of yo yo diets. Losing weight and unable to keep it off for good, obsessing about how much you weigh and worrying about your health daily.
Weighing yourself daily, tracking calories, tracking macros, pinching this fat and hating on that roll.
Been there, done that, all I got was an eating disorder.
Thin - depressed, anxious, high self doubt, low esteem
Then fat again, no matter how little I ate, how much I over exercised.
That's me in the black pants, don't confuse my smile because I was at a Habitat For Humanity build for happiness. I was pretending so I didn't burden others with my distress and I genuinely enjoyed giving back.
I now track my eating in another way, by centering nutrition, following my body's natural sensations of tiredness and tension, hunger and fullness cues. Along with my stable emotional state and positive self talk, they all work in sync now, there is food freedom to be had from intuitive eating!
I was skeptical at first. After 2 years, I'm a healed believer.
I intentionally wanted this diary to be loosely drafted, with no food rules. A safe online presence, a private one, with no diet culture influence, away from the maddening crowd!
Unlike myfitnesspal account, which drove me deeper into disordered eating behaviours a few years ago, there I met so many frantic dieters, all desperate like the old me. I was weighing myself daily for months, I knew how many calories was in a curry puff, how "bad" Laksa was. I got more and more obsessed, as I successfully lost the diet culture recommended weight, foods got increasingly frightening at the same time.
I disliked eating more and more, my mental health got worse, I was losing weight as planned, but that didn't make me happy, it didn't make me more confident about dating, my career or anything else. I still felt ugly, I still had a huge inner critic punishing me daily, I still felt like a failure underneath the compliments I got when I was thin.
Underneath all the degrees, achievements and medals, I didn't believe I genuinely mattered and I was worthy of body acceptance.
I was miserable and hated my life! Whether I was thin or fat, it didn't make a difference.
I didn't want to know how many calories are in foods, it ruined many of my favourite foods instead.
So, this version is a far healthier one. It has only the photo, the date and nutritional values. Sometimes I add in the time, so I know approximately how long it takes me to be hungry again, this is so I know how to plan travel or meal prep.
A guide if you're new to IE, tend to restrict eat, set an alarm to factor in at least 3 meals a day in the beginning. This was how I started eating enough again. I was skipping meals for a long time, especially breakfast. What is THAT? I was terribly proud of myself as well, SEE, how in control I am!
When I did a food diary, I was stunned, I was severely malnourished, I was eating for a child's needs.
A food diary is important because it helps you track your progress, having a plan is also assuring, a go to place to document everything.
I use it to meal plan as well, including grocery shopping, batch cooking home made meals and eating out. It keeps all the eating info I need in one place.
Here's how you do it!
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